It is with all seriousness that we live our lives and believe in a kind of temporary immortality. All of the world from childhood to old age is ours, or so we think. And it is “thinking” that is the problem that separates us from every living thing around us. We “think” with our enlarged brains that we understand what is happening. We “think” we understand the world and our place in it. We “think” we are separate little islands of living beings that are somehow above other life forms with almost magical powers to alter the world around us. This is all an illusion created by a reality that our brains have constructed for us. We are not higher life forms and we are not separate from the world. We have left the family that exists all around us. That family waits patiently for us to return.
No kids, no dog (the dog 'belongs' to the ex), some distant family members that are all jabbed up so I worry, oh yes I do. Closing in on 60. I play trombone and some other horns, a bit of guitar. Do some cad drafting. Make some wine with gleaned fruit, (lots of that here). Luckily the old Volvo quit for good, (about 100 miles from home so the tow was only a few hundred bucks -yay!?). Got me back on the bike which I like, though I cannot find my rain fender. So for the moment I am just here looking at the rain and trying to convince myself to go for a rainy walk. Reasons to brush hair and teeth. Wishing that the puppeteers weren't such asshats, but I suppose they have always been asshats, which is why they are puppeteers, right? Always good to hear from you Lawrence, always.
Lawrence! I totally relate to what you are saying! It’s absolutely amazing!
I turned 60 just a few minutes ago (10:23 PST). Our life on earth is indescribable. So many memories, feelings, and wishes that fade away. And often, it just doesn’t matter anymore.
All that matters is God and everything after decades, falls into place. I’m thankful for every moment I have, good or bad.
Brought a twinkle to my eye. Didn't know you met Ginsberg. I used to like his stuff a lot. Some of it still do. "Kaddish" is simply an epic poem - it contains entire worlds of info about Ginsberg's own family, while he's somehow making it relatable to millions of readers. Great stuff. Basically the longer stuff is good too where he's describing his endless travels across America. Used to read it when I was doing graduate work in Kansas. Well, when one is in a nightmare of the New Normal, always good to reflect on writers of the past. We strive to solidify the images, such as you pointed out, through our words. But all in vain - time slips away. Sooner than it should for soooo many these days.
A very touching essay, and thank you for feeling enough of a connection to all of us readers to share it with us, who then feel a connection to you.
And your dogs!
Today I was outside in the sunny fall weather, feeling a good connection to all of the life in my gardens and surrounding nature. This time of year, much of the life has flown south, burrowed in for the winter, or dying back to the ground after sowing some seeds. It's life, and I shall enjoy it (with my cats) for as long as I can, and then eventually become one with it all.
Ah... It's so good to see a fellow degenerate uman animal realizing that it's our Thought the root of all violence, torture and death. When we do realize this and reject it we can finally Live a Balanced Dog Life. I wish You a very good death.
You have written a beautiful piece Lawrence. I can relate to your thoughts on the passing of time and our experiences. I turned 57 two weeks ago and have been thinking a lot about mortality since my father's death on June 28th this year. I had been thinking about aging (as a girl does) for the past few years. Yet my father's passing, having had him in my life for 56 years years, has had an enormous impact on how I now reflect on life. I don't know that I quite understand all of my thoughts and where they are taking me. Yet I do know that I am working on appreciating the moments I have. Appreciating that I still have my husband, when others I know have lost their spouses. Appreciating that I still have my health and my talents and friends- and some time. Yet we really don't have any idea how much time we have....Boy, I could go on but I have been promising myself some earlier nights- and I need the sleep tonight. Thank you Lawrence :) xo
So rings true....we are distracted by life, but who or what we are as children comes back around in old age...and that we did indeed leave the family that was around us, and finally we are in our right minds again trying to re-connect to the family we left. This thing called living and earning a living are indeed the huge distraction that make us forget what we knew as kids.
Lawrence don't know how to get a hold of you, but unrelated to this stack today is Sun Jan 7...found out this am my friend of 40 years that I spoke with yesterday at 1:30 pm was taken to emergency room not feeling well...her blood pressure was 200 something over 190....she is still there...three dogs at home. My other friend thinks she is gonna drive (they took away her keys) to take her dog to vet (surgery area) tomorrow no idea why....and my other good friend who is interfacing with my attorneys for me called today to say his secretary of years ago just died on the 28th of Dec...he found out on facebook, called the daughter, didn't see obituary, called again...the daughters boyfriend died of a massive stroke night after new years.
Lawrence, you were right...and its accelerating...Lord have mercy....And they all have colds, tested for covid, tested positive, now negative but dying. Shit.
Lawrence, I am sorry to keep butting in on wrong posts (but I can't think of another way to get a hold of you). This was disquieting...because they are talking about Covid infection, and recommending jabs...but the jabs depress your immune system so I do not know what to think...could you take a look at this and let me know your thoughts? I think they are pointing to the HIV thingy on the spike protein...and if covid was really a man made infectious but non replicating clone...this is exactly what you have been saying...get a hazmat suit.
My husband and I today were just reviewing some of the old issues we cared passionately about, and which now seem like energy wasted as we didn't change anything.
A lot of futility.
Came from me thinking that Millennials have zilch interest in what Boomers think and it's a waste of energy trying to get through to them.
Used to be that the children rebelled from their parents but the grandchildren had a bond with the grandparents.
Now with woke and tech the intergenerational divide doesn't meet at any point.
😢😭 I too just care about and for my dogs. They are old like me. They love me as much as I love them.
Yes, I still struggle with granddaughters, but eventually it will be the dog.
Man's best friend, man's only friend.
No kids, no dog (the dog 'belongs' to the ex), some distant family members that are all jabbed up so I worry, oh yes I do. Closing in on 60. I play trombone and some other horns, a bit of guitar. Do some cad drafting. Make some wine with gleaned fruit, (lots of that here). Luckily the old Volvo quit for good, (about 100 miles from home so the tow was only a few hundred bucks -yay!?). Got me back on the bike which I like, though I cannot find my rain fender. So for the moment I am just here looking at the rain and trying to convince myself to go for a rainy walk. Reasons to brush hair and teeth. Wishing that the puppeteers weren't such asshats, but I suppose they have always been asshats, which is why they are puppeteers, right? Always good to hear from you Lawrence, always.
Lawrence! I totally relate to what you are saying! It’s absolutely amazing!
I turned 60 just a few minutes ago (10:23 PST). Our life on earth is indescribable. So many memories, feelings, and wishes that fade away. And often, it just doesn’t matter anymore.
All that matters is God and everything after decades, falls into place. I’m thankful for every moment I have, good or bad.
Brought a twinkle to my eye. Didn't know you met Ginsberg. I used to like his stuff a lot. Some of it still do. "Kaddish" is simply an epic poem - it contains entire worlds of info about Ginsberg's own family, while he's somehow making it relatable to millions of readers. Great stuff. Basically the longer stuff is good too where he's describing his endless travels across America. Used to read it when I was doing graduate work in Kansas. Well, when one is in a nightmare of the New Normal, always good to reflect on writers of the past. We strive to solidify the images, such as you pointed out, through our words. But all in vain - time slips away. Sooner than it should for soooo many these days.
A very touching essay, and thank you for feeling enough of a connection to all of us readers to share it with us, who then feel a connection to you.
And your dogs!
Today I was outside in the sunny fall weather, feeling a good connection to all of the life in my gardens and surrounding nature. This time of year, much of the life has flown south, burrowed in for the winter, or dying back to the ground after sowing some seeds. It's life, and I shall enjoy it (with my cats) for as long as I can, and then eventually become one with it all.
Ah... It's so good to see a fellow degenerate uman animal realizing that it's our Thought the root of all violence, torture and death. When we do realize this and reject it we can finally Live a Balanced Dog Life. I wish You a very good death.
You have written a beautiful piece Lawrence. I can relate to your thoughts on the passing of time and our experiences. I turned 57 two weeks ago and have been thinking a lot about mortality since my father's death on June 28th this year. I had been thinking about aging (as a girl does) for the past few years. Yet my father's passing, having had him in my life for 56 years years, has had an enormous impact on how I now reflect on life. I don't know that I quite understand all of my thoughts and where they are taking me. Yet I do know that I am working on appreciating the moments I have. Appreciating that I still have my husband, when others I know have lost their spouses. Appreciating that I still have my health and my talents and friends- and some time. Yet we really don't have any idea how much time we have....Boy, I could go on but I have been promising myself some earlier nights- and I need the sleep tonight. Thank you Lawrence :) xo
So rings true....we are distracted by life, but who or what we are as children comes back around in old age...and that we did indeed leave the family that was around us, and finally we are in our right minds again trying to re-connect to the family we left. This thing called living and earning a living are indeed the huge distraction that make us forget what we knew as kids.
Lawrence don't know how to get a hold of you, but unrelated to this stack today is Sun Jan 7...found out this am my friend of 40 years that I spoke with yesterday at 1:30 pm was taken to emergency room not feeling well...her blood pressure was 200 something over 190....she is still there...three dogs at home. My other friend thinks she is gonna drive (they took away her keys) to take her dog to vet (surgery area) tomorrow no idea why....and my other good friend who is interfacing with my attorneys for me called today to say his secretary of years ago just died on the 28th of Dec...he found out on facebook, called the daughter, didn't see obituary, called again...the daughters boyfriend died of a massive stroke night after new years.
Lawrence, you were right...and its accelerating...Lord have mercy....And they all have colds, tested for covid, tested positive, now negative but dying. Shit.
Lawrence, I am sorry to keep butting in on wrong posts (but I can't think of another way to get a hold of you). This was disquieting...because they are talking about Covid infection, and recommending jabs...but the jabs depress your immune system so I do not know what to think...could you take a look at this and let me know your thoughts? I think they are pointing to the HIV thingy on the spike protein...and if covid was really a man made infectious but non replicating clone...this is exactly what you have been saying...get a hazmat suit.
https://thetyee.ca/Analysis/2022/11/07/COVID-Reinfections-And-Immunity/
My husband and I today were just reviewing some of the old issues we cared passionately about, and which now seem like energy wasted as we didn't change anything.
A lot of futility.
Came from me thinking that Millennials have zilch interest in what Boomers think and it's a waste of energy trying to get through to them.
Used to be that the children rebelled from their parents but the grandchildren had a bond with the grandparents.
Now with woke and tech the intergenerational divide doesn't meet at any point.
What your Viet Nam vet said can never be recovered from.